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An As Of Yet Untitled Poem With Deep Subtext

A poem I wrote about missing my brother, who died in April of 2013.

I missed you the other day.  
By a foot and a half, by the wind blowing the other way.  
And I can't exactly say  
What made me think of you  
But I had to stop and listen to the rain for a little bit  
before I could go on again.  

I missed you the other day.  
By a hop, skip, and jump away, by a sliver of time that flew.  
And it wasn't clear on my face and nobody knew  
By how much had gone and how much there is left to go through.  
And I wish I understood what it was  
That made me think of you.  
But I went on with my day the way I was supposed to.  

I missed you the other day.  
By the width of a sunshine ray, by the circumference of a tornado's rotation.  
And it wasn't a particularly noteworthy quotation  
That caught my attention  
And reminded me of you.  
But I sat down and read a book  
And everything was quiet for the night.  

I missed you the other day.  
By an airplane flight delay, by the six inches I have over my sister.  
And I wondered if the broken pieces  
Of a radio transistor  
Might make more sense to me  
Than the curious reasons  
That you should ever simply remain history  
But I thought about what that meant  
and the wonder ceased to be.  

I missed you the other day.  
By the length of the Chesapeake Bay, by 21 days in February.  
And I considered something so arbitrary  
As the number of days in a month  
But the months pass by and I am left on the wayside.  
So it was best I tried something different instead.  

I missed you the other day.  
But I miss you more today.  
I miss you more than anything  
I have ever missed this way. 

--PennyLaneOnAbbeyRoad